fever, turn the lights out. take a different road. let us be.

this morning, i awoke to the end of an instant messenger conversation with a new friend. he said we have conversations that he barely has with anyone, and used the words maelstrom and beautiful, among others. i told jenna the favorite parts of the conversation that she slept through, the most humorous being when he said 'my dick didn't even flinch.' maybe it was my overtiredness... because i thought it was a lot funnier last night than i do now.

i feel really good about our show last night.
a lot of my friends came that i didn't even tell that we were playing, some that had never seen us play before, and they all had wonderful things to say.
it made me feel good for us.

as i was looking at the jobs on craigslist this morning, i remembered one of my dreams last night.
i was pregnant.
i've never had that dream before because i've always been able to control them enough to stay realistic.
i can't even put into words how i feel right now, but i probably shouldn't be listening to azure ray.

i had this kind of friendship two years ago.
it was a good one.
i still have the two dollar bill that he gave me for parking at the hospital when we went to go see mary's brother.
i'm grateful that maggie digitally caught this moment in time.